Fortunate Friday: Discovering my health

In 2012, I had no balance. I found myself binging on late-night McDonalds and relying on processed foods to fill my nutrient and calorie deficiencies. Until one morning, I woke up with an awful outbreak of eczema on my thighs, my stomach, my hands and my face. With a shattered self-confidence, I made my way into a dermatologists office in which I was offered steroids as my course of treatment. I declined.

I obsessively researched ways to cure control my eczema and fell deeply engrossed with the mission of homeopathy. I found myself investing time to cook, create recipes and soon realized that I felt contentment in the kitchen. I found myself truly savoring every bite of my whole-fooded meals and realized that buying groceries was more satisfying than anything materialistic. I fell in love with the process of choosing to prioritize my health. Three months later, my eczema completely disappeared.

Not only did my physical exterior change, so did my quality of life. Holistic health addressed my mind, body and soul. I decided to treat my body as a system instead of compartmentalizing myself into symptoms or parts. Most importantly, I learned (and still learning!) that nutrition does not mean low fat or low calorie. It’s a nourishment of your being so you can feel energized to live life to it’s true potential.

So here’s my doctors orders: Sometimes a small step may be the biggest step in the right direction. Tip toe if you must. Eating crappy food is not a reward, it’s a punishment, remember that! Lastly, fall in love with taking care of yourself.. Mind, body and spirit.

Good luck. Xo, T.
PS: Shoutout to my friend, Shireen, who inspired me to blog about this. Thanks girl!


Of course it’s hard, it’s supposed to be

Making a large life change is scary. But do you know what’s even scarier? Regret.

The only thing standing between you and your goals are the bullshit stories you keep telling yourself. In my experience, there are two things that define you: Your patience when you have nothing and the attitude you carry when you have everything. The first step to take to getting anywhere is making the concrete decision that you’re not willing to stay where you are now because honestly, if your dreams don’t scare the shit of you, they’re just not big enough.

Every morning that you wake up, you have two choices to make: Continue to chase your dreams, or wake the fuck up and chase them. As a 23-year old college student, it’s only been a recent revelation that I’ve wanted to pursue medicine as a chosen career path. For a long time, I dabbled in fashion, marketing and nursing. I hit the jackpot when I decided to become a nursing major. I’ve always been good at math and science, and interested in healthcare not because I’m superbly intelligent, I’ve just always spent more time on a problem than another student would. As a nursing major, I went through multiple series self-discovery. Throughout this process, I developed an innate curiosity and a passion to need want to know more about the human body, it’s function and physiology. After entering a pre-medical internship, I quickly learned that nursing wasn’t for me. I was doing it for all the wrong reasons; to have a steady job, a pay that would benefit the lifestyle I wanted to live, working 3 days a week, etc. I didn’t take into consideration how my unhappiness with said “job” would affect the people I was working with, patients but more importantly, my overall well being. My days as a nursing major soon turned into long nights of crying- I hated the thought of knowing, in my heart, that being in that profession wasn’t for me. My unhappiness and dissatisfication affected everything around me; my studies and my personal life. Finally, after receiving a few acceptance letters to nursing school, I decided that I couldn’t sacrifice my happiness for a peripheral feeling of having a steady job. It was an injustice to my mind, body and soul.. My heart. 

Fast forward to 2013, with a new found love for holistic health, nutrition and medicine, I discovered a medical degree called D.O or Doctor of Osteopathic Medicine; the same degree as an MD (you go to conventional medical school, the whole shabang!) but they have chosen to practice more holistically, in the sense of treating the body as a whole, rather than the symptom. Becoming a D.O is somewhat viewed as a whole new faction of medicine. In other terms, not completely accepted by the traditional medicinal minds that have been conformed to what is the “right kind of doctor.” But in my perspective, success follows where passion lies. Do everything with love, and everything that you want will follow. I am not concerned with money, or a status symbol. What’s most important (to me) is to follow your dreams and follow your heart because your mind can often convince you to put off what your heart really wants.. Remember, the expert in anything was once a beginner. I’m 23, a junior at University and never been happier to know that I’m finally pursuing something that makes my heart sing and my soul smile.

So, here are my doctors orders: Be crazy enough to know that you can succeed! Don’t overthink, it kills your happiness. Accept that trial and error is part of failure and it’ll happen often, view it as an opportunity to start over and this time, do it wisely. Be afraid to never try, but not to fail. Accept that the struggle you’re in today is setting you up for the strength you’ll be feeling tomorrow. Don’t compare your chapter 1 to someone else’s chapter 25. Wake up everyday and kick ass. REPEAT.

Be a hero. To yourself.

Xo, T.

The gift of forgiveness

Here’s something cliche for you to hold onto.. Everybody makes mistakes but that doesn’t mean they have to pay for it their entire life. More often than not, good people make bad decisions. That doesn’t make them bad people, just normally human.

A lot of people think that the moment you decide to forgive somebody who once hurt you, the person who receives the forgiveness is the only one benefiting from your kind and charitable gesture, but that’s not the case. I can tell you that the person who will
benefit the most is the person who does the forgiving. Don’t let your mind trick you into thinking that forgiveness is an act of weakness. Contrary to what you have been led to believe, forgiveness is an act of strength not of weakness. Unless you have seen someone’s darkness, you can’t fully know who they are.

Before I discovered the healing powers of EDM (I’ll do a post about this soon!), I found myself holding on to a lot of things that affected me negatively. I found myself living in my past relationships that had ended and old, failed friendships that were finished. Feeling angry, judgmental and opinionated, I soon realized, after multiple events of self-discovery, that my negative feelings towards others were entirely wrong but more importantly, none of my business. I was keeping myself in a glass box of demise, suffocating and weening to get out.

So here are my doctors orders: Simplify your life! And rediscover peace, solitude, tranquility and happiness – Be kind, succeed, be honest, be sincere, be happy and do good things anyway. Regardless, give them your best anyway. Choose with your heart, never with your mind and you will soon free yourself.

This doesn’t come easy, and won’t happen in a quick second. Make an effort of letting go and you’ll soon find yourself naturally emitting positive energy.

Xo, T.